Another night turns into dawn
My eyes are closed, and yet no sleep
A Tear inside my soul
A heavy heart, thought I can’t weep
Mind is spinning, churning, digging, yearning
All around, now I feel ill
Thoughts erratic and sporadic
What the fuck, pls just be still
I want to put my hands
Inside my chest, rip out my heart
But I can’t as it’s in pieces
And it’s all been torn apart
Cut my skin and let the anger drain
Surround me like a moat
I want to shout and yet it’s like
There’s someone’s hands around my throat
Now I can’t breathe I’m suffocating
And I reach out and I gasp
I paw the air there’s nothing there
Nothing or no one I can grasp
Feels like I’m failing and I’m falling
Ever deeper down so low
No coming back from this point on
Not from where I’m about to go
The darkness pulls my hair
It slaps my face and now I scream
That’s when I wake up and I realise
Life’s a nightmare, not a dream